Demented Rants

As most of you know, I found out terribly tragic news on Saturday that the fetus had stopped growing about 3 weeks ago, and as of Saturday, didn’t have a heartbeat. I was 1 day shy of being 12 weeks along. It was heartbreaking to hear, and I still have to hold back the tears thinking about it.

I had absolutely no cramping, so they sent me home, and referred me to an OB that was part of their hospital network. I called her on Monday morning, and she said she wanted me in asap, but the only time she had anything available was Tuesday at 3pm.

By the time Tuesday had come, I had some very minor cramping, but nothing major at all. The hospital had prescribed me Lortab 5/500 as a precaution. The OB was actually supposed to be at the hospital delivering a baby, but wanted to check on me first so that she could figure out if I needed a D&C (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dilation_and_curettage). Since my cramping was very minor at this point, she decided to have me scheduled for Thursday or Friday.

She was then reminded that she would be in Montana after Wednesday night, so I told the nurse that honestly, I didn’t care who did the surgery, as long as it got done. She said she’d look into the partner docs that would be taking over while my OB was out of the state.

Hours went by, and my cramping got a little worse, but nothing major still. I took a short 1 hour nap, woke up and started cooking some cinnamon rolls. Before they’d been in for 10 minutes, I started horrendous cramps.

I went to take a really hot bath, to help quell the pain, and it worked while I was in the tub, but the second I got out, I started feeling contractions. I knew what was happening, but didn’t know how to handle it.

Within 20 mins, I had managed to lose a shit ton of blood, as well as a golf ball sized clot. At this point, my husband decided that it was time to call the hospital. After some annoying transferring, he was finally told to call my OB. Her after hours doc could hear me screaming in pain from the other side of the house, while he was on the phone, and said to bring me in immediately. It was so excruciating, I thought I was going to die or pass out or both. At this point, I didn’t care which happened as long as the pain stopped.

I had never felt pain like this. Yes I had an epidural with my daughter, when I went into labor with her, but there was a 2 hour period between doses that I felt the full force of labor pains, and it was NOTHING compared to this. The only way I can explain it is if you managed to shoot and stab yourself in the lower abdomen at the same time, and kept twisting the knife.

I went to the hospital, and they dragged me into a room and immediately shot me up with Dilaudid. My pain IMMEDIATELY stopped. This lasted about an hour. The on call ER doctor came in and did a pelvic exam to see what was going on. I writhed around, because everytime he touched my cervix, it was like he was stabbing me.

This, of course, caused more cramps to start back up, and my pain meds to almost immediately cease working. They came in with Morphine, but it barely touched the pain. It was barely 25 mins and I was screaming again. The nurse came back with more Dilaudid, since it was the only thing they’d used that had actually worked.

I then got hooked up to a potassium drip (which sucked ass until she spliced it with saline) and I laid there for 2 hours without pain, just waiting for my OB to get there so they could do the D&C.

Finally, she came in (and wasn’t even supposed to, but she felt it was her responsibility since she had sent me home earlier that day). They knocked me out, and an hour later I woke up in no pain, except that I had to piss like a racehorse.

Got to go home right after that, and am doing well so far. Very minor pain, mostly just sore, like someone punched me over and over in my cervix. I assume this pain is from them dilating it and the scar tissue from my surgery in July ’10 is a bit tender.

The good news to come out of all of this is that the OB I’ve gotten out of this actually listens to her patients. I will be going in for a follow up exam in about 6 weeks (gotta call and schedule it tomorrow because I slept all day until about 5pm) and she said that she is definitely going to be testing for endometriosis.

It’s been a terribly tragic week, and it’s only Wednesday. But, I have loving friends that have all been here for me as best as they possibly can. Noel is supposed to come by Friday, I am pretty sure 2 other friends are coming by either Fri or Sat, and am hoping I can get my little bro to come stay tomorrow

Yay! It’s Christmas time again. Time for freezing my ass off at the goddamn bus stop for 20 mins while I wait for spawn’s bus! Ugh. ok. Indiana weather SUCKS but that doesn’t mean you can’t make my time a little nicer & warmer ^_^

I’m again offering kick ass thank you presents for anyone who happens to grab something off my xmas wishlist I have some practical items, pregnanty stuff, and of course, the fun stuff!

This year’s “Thank You” gifts are similar to last year’s, so they should look at least somewhat familiar ^_^

So here’s the important stuff I said last year as well:

ALL purchase will receive a custom fan sign OR printed & signed 4×6 AND  the extras are listed below ^_^

Every item $10 or less – 5 photo set with the item you purchased or 5 photos of your choice if it’s not really a “photo set” type item*

$10.01-$15 – 15 photo set* and 2 months to GeekGirlsOnline (GGO) or 1 month to MissAthenaHollow (MAH)

$15.01-$20 – 15 photo set* and 3 months to GGO or 2 months to MAH

$20.01-$35  – 20 photo set* or 5 minute cam show and 4 months to GGO or 3 months to MAH

$35.01-$50  – 25 photo set* or 10 minute cam show and 6 months to GGO or  5 months to MAH

$50.01+ – 25 photo set and 10 minute cam show as well as 6 months to GGO or 5 months to MAH

You can of course choose to purchase a few different things and have the option to combine the prices together or keep them separate, but only if you purchase those items at the same time, e.g. if you choose to buy a $6 item today, then a $30 item a week from now, you’ll get a 5 photo set with the first item and a 20 photo set w/ the 2nd OR a 5 minute cam show. (This is to make it easier on my mind to keep track and make time for everyone equally )

Of course, you have to email me when you purchase something so I know it’s from you and will make it a lot easier to get you your Thank You gift

So there ya have it. Just head over to my xmas 2011 wishlist and have fun

http://amzn.com/w/11GG6YLDZCWMR

Discount prices available until Monday, Nov 27th. For web design deals, you must pay the deposit by Monday. For all else, just contact me.

To see our standard pricing, check out our pricing page

Basic Package

• 1-4 Unique Pages
• Basic Design
• $350 $297.50

Standard Package

• 5-7 Unique Pages
• Basic to Moderate Design
• $450 $382.50

Enterprise Package

• 8-12 Unique Pages
• Basic to Complex Design
• $550+ $467.50+

Graphics Only Pricing

• Header – $25 $20
• Small Logo (for website or watermarking) – $30 $25
• Large Logo (for print designs) – $60+ $50+

Affiliate Site Setup & Promotional Material

• Affiliate Program Setup (Includes Sign Up Page) – $40 $35
• Single Template Design – Video or Photo – $40 $35
• One Video Design, One Photo Design – $70 $65
• Simple Gallery Creation – Images already watermarked, videos already edited – $6 $4/gallery
• Advanced Gallery Creation – Images/Videos need watermarked, resized, edited – $12 $9/gallery
• Simple Affiliate Package (Includes Program setup, Sign Up page, 10 simple galleries or 5 advanced galleries, 1 video or photo gallery template and 5 banners) – $190 value for only $100 $85
• Advanced Affiliate Package (Includes Program setup, Sign Up page, 10 simple galleries or 5 advanced galleries, both a video and photo gallery template and 15 banners) – $230 value for only $150 $125

If you are interested, send me an email at contact@trinityintrigue.com or message me on twitter – @athenahollow

Last week, I asked you to submit your geekiest names for a vagina. Though all the entries were pretty awesome, I said I would select only 5 to compete for the Solar Powered Bullet Vibrator from Babeland Toys. Well, it took a good hour to decide, but I finally have it, and the poll for you to vote on your favorite!

So choose carefully, because you can only vote once. Voting will continue until 11:59pm eastern, on Friday, October 21.

After the poll is closed, I’ll send an email to the winner and update this post. ^_^

Good luck to all who were selected, and thank you to everyone who participated!

How geeky could you possibly get? A solar powered bullet vibrator is pretty fucking nerdy, if you ask me. AND environmentally friendly! Want to win your own? Well, I’ve partnered up with Babeland to bring you just that chance.

All you have to do is post in the comments your geekiest nickname for lady parts! Get creative! Is your twat akin to Pangina’s Labyrinth or have you compared shaving day to the Forests of Endor? Post away!

I’ll post my top 5 favorites this weekend and let you vote on which one you think is best. The winner will then receive a Solar Bullet from Babeland Toys.

Here’s some information from Babeland about the Solar Bullet!

Get off on saving the planet with the Solar Bullet vibe. Eight hours of exposure to sunshine provides one hour of blissful two-speed vibration against your clit, balls, perineum… you decide. Makes a perfect gift for your favorite tree-hugging pleasure-seeker, or bring it on your next camping trip. To top it all off, the box is printed to environmentally responsible Forest Stewardship Council (FSC) standards.

Rules:

• Contest only open to those in the Continental US (Sorry guys, too much for shipping otherwise & each country has their own legal rules about contests).
• Winner must be 18+
• Winner will be contact via email, twitter or facebook, depending on which service you use to comment with.

Good Luck to you all.

Supported and brought to you by Courtney Trouble and Jiz Lee, International Fisting Day is just around the corner. This is the time to stand up to unjust censorship! There is nothing obscene about fisting, there is nothing WRONG with it. Tell your favorite porn retailers YOU want REAL orgasms from REAL sex, not this fake bullshit you see coming out of Hollywood every day!

Check out the official event page for International Fisting Day, which is October 21st!

To help celebrate, I made my own video. If you are interested, I am compiling and converting it tonight. It’s $10, and will be 5-7 minutes long (I’m not exactly sure how much footage I have, timewise. I know it’s a minimum of 5 minutes though) I have compiled & uploaded the 5 minute video to my server. It is $10, or you can get it as a free bonus video if you buy my 1 hour video for $20. If you are interested, send me an email – athena@missathenahollow.com

Support REAL SEX!

So, one of my fellow models asked via her FB, what a good cam site was to work for. She hasn’t cammed for a while, and was wanting some advice. She stated that she didn’t want to work on MFC anymore (and I can’t say I blame her there at all), and that she was looking to make some extra money.

One of her friends, and myself, endorsed Streamate. A few other people mentioned whitelabel¹ sites OF Streamate, and one vote was tossed in for OnHerCams.

Then, one of her friends said not to do Streamate because they only pay 20%. I mentioned something along the lines of “Who cares if you only make 20%, if you are making bank per hour still?” I also mentioned that if I recall correctly, you ALSO make 15% for LIFE for any referrals, and that it should help compensate you that % that you might be accustomed to getting on, say, MFC (if anyone but the top out of 800+ models actually made any worthwhile money on there). She then likened it to cyber prostitution. This is where I sighed. I pointed out that I have no issues with prostitution; not only do they set their own hours and wage, they are independent. What’s not to love about that?

I then broke down exactly how that 20% ends up being 20%.

• Cam Girl Cut: 20-35%
• + Affiliate Cut: 15%
• + Credit Card Processing Cut: 12-15% + 5% that you get back 6 months later IF you don’t have a chargeback².

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• Site Cut: 30-45%

That is then further broken down into server costs, chargeback costs (that aren’t covered by the 5% rollover), staff costs etc.

In the end, a cam site with an affiliate program, makes roughly 15%-20%. The owner of the site MIGHT make 3%, if his or her contract is REALLY good haha.

After you break it down, it’s a VERY marginal percent that ends up making it to the people who run the sites 24 hours a day, 7 days a week. Answering our most intricate or tedious questions.

This is what I'm doing for most of this convo

She stated that she did in fact make a lot of money on Streamates… >_> SO WHERE IS THE GODDAMN PROBLEM?! I don’t get it. If your choices are 1) Work on a cam site that you make 50% on, but never get any shows or tips, or 2) Work on a cam site that you make 20% (+15% affiliate referral for the life of the user you refer), but average $50-100 per hour, why is there ANY question at all?

Unless the site is a shitty or shady site, FUCKING GO FOR THE ONE THAT MAKES YOU MONEY!

NO! You aren’t a “digital prostitute” as she tried to state, you are a goddamn smart business woman. It’s the difference between choosing a minimum wage job at McDonalds and a waitressing job at a very busy restaurant: You work the same hours, except on the latter, you make 2-3x as much a night. Sure, it might be a little more work, as you are actually doing something instead of standing there, bored out of your goddamn mind, but it’s worth it.

So, after that, I was blocked… and now, when I look at the conversation, it looks as though I’ve been conversing with myself for the past half hour. Cam Girl Logic = Fail sometimes :-/

^{1 A whitelabel is an affiliate tool that many large webcam sites use that allows the affiliate to embed a customizable version of the camsite into their own site. Normally, it is branded with the affiliate’s site name, but it is not, in fact, a cam site itself. The quickest way to determine if it is a camsite or a whitelabel is to visit the 2257 page. On there, it should say something like “c/o WEBCAM SITE NAME” or just list the camsite’s name as the main contact name.}

^{2. Camsites have one of the largest chargeback ratios. Many people will use their wife’s card, use a stolen credit card, or are just plain assholes and charge it back so they don’t have to pay for the services rendered. Many sites will split this with the cam model, as she is caught unaware and gets screwed. Because of this, the 5% holdback reserve is very often run out and then the charges cut into the cost margins of the site. Running a cam site is very high risk and no fucking joke.}

I’m heading to a new horror convention that’s being held the 2nd-4th of July.

Unfortunately, I’m broke as hell from being an adult (ya know, paying bills, supporting a kid, etc) so I’m trying to come up with extra cash for the show. I have admission covered, but I’d like to be able to buy stuff like autographs (I want Ed Furlong to sign me dammit!) as well as food, gas and the like.

SO! This is good for you ^_^ I am offering lifetime memberships for both GeekGirlsOnline and MissAthenaHollow as well as 1 year memberships for MissAthenaHollow.

I am also offering custom videos at a discount. My normal prices are seen here, but until the 28th, I’m offering custom videos & photos for 20% off!

Adjusted video prices are:

Solo masturbation or shower – 15 minutes for $30 $24; 30 minutes for $60 $48

Blowjob; Handjob; Footjob; Full sex video (vaginal penetration only) – 15 minutes for $40 $32; 30 minutes for $75 $60

Adjusted photo set prices are:

1 outfit  – $35 $28 for 50 photos; $60 $48 for 100

2+ outfits; fetish (foot, smoking, balloon, underwater – if other, please email me – NO scat, watersports, animals, etc) $45 $36 for 50 photos; $70 $56 for 100

Lifetime Memberships:

GeekGirlsOnline – $200

MissAthenaHollow – $250

1 year memberships for MissAthenaHollow are available for $125

If you are interested, please, let me know! I will also be on MFC camming most nights until the end of the month, so if you want a live cam show, be sure to stop in and check my cam schedule to see when I’ll be on ^_^ (Or follow me on twitter @athenahollow)

OH! And of course, always offering banner & logo work, as well as website design!

If you want information about Days of the Dead, be sure to check out the website! You can meet me, as well as a shit ton of fabu celebs, other horror fans and just all around macabre goodies (such as the FIRST showing of the “Nightmare on Elm Street Museum” *swoon*)

I finally started getting more money coming in, unfortunately I’m behind on EVERYTHING! So, I’m offering discounted memberships to my sites to try and raise the roughly $105 I need to raise by Sunday. If you are interested, please please PLEASE let me know!

I’m offering the following:

MissAthenaHollow.com -
1 month: $12 (normally $17 for non-recurring)
3 months: $30 (normally $34.95 recurring)
6 months: $60 (normally $75 non-recurring)
1 year: $100
Lifetime: $250

GeekGirlsOnline.com -
1 month: $10 (normally $12 non-recurring)
3 months: $20 (normally $25 recurring)
6 months: $40 (normally $45 non-recurring)
1 year: $70 (normally $85 non-recurring)
Lifetime: $200

I unfortunately can’t shoot any custom videos right now, as I’m working very hard on my very first 1 hour video, and it’s taking all the time I have available to shoot content. BUT If you’d like to order a copy, preorders are available until Sunday for $15 and after Sunday, it will be $20. So far it features the first (and probably only ever) dancing/strip tease of me, masturbating with my rabbit with fun shooting style and will also feature a blowjob and a good ol’ fashion fuckin’ ^_^

So, yea, if you are interested in any of the above, send me an email at athena@missathenahollow.com !!